Mourning the loss

Monday, June 20, 2005

It is always a little uncomfortable to write blog entries about sad or painful things. But, sometimes it really helps to put your feelings into words and put those words in a place that is not stuck inside your head.

On June 14^th, 2005 my mom passed away. She was 53 years old. That is not very old. I always expected her to be around to see my boys graduate high school and go on to college. Sometimes, life changes in an instant.

So... I will give you the brief undetailed version of the situation. For a number of years, she suffered from hepatitis that she acquired from a blood transfusion almost 2 decades ago. In the past couple of years it really began to take its toll on her. She recently reached a point where her liver could no longer filter properly and it caused her to become incurably ill.

For as far back as I can remember, she was always willing to try an help others. She often took in mine or my brothers friends that needed a place to stay or had problems at home. She had so much love to give.

But, that love was tough. It came at a cost. She had so much pain surrounding her that it made it difficult at times to be close to her. I hope that her pain is lifted and she can finally be in peace.

She wanted to have her body donated to science. So there was no funeral. A service was held in her honor. Most everyone at the service spoke in memory of her. Initially, I had not planned to speak at the service. As the service went on, I was moved by others words and felt a need to express my feelings. I hope my words reach her.

She will live on forever through our memories. God bless you, mom.

~Noah

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